Constant Reminders..

Like many of you know when I first found out that we were pregnant we were ecstatic  We changed so many things in our life for this newest edition. We knew we needed a bigger car. We got rid of my horrible little SUV and upgraded it to a Tahoe with a 3rd row. We needed that third row because our second row was going to be filled with 2 perfect kids. Now all I have is a empty spot in our car, where she should be at. After we purchased the Tahoe we realized that our sons toys were taking over the house. We needed more room, so we finished the basement. It was all done by my husband and his friend and took around 3 months but it was finished. We were so excited to add more toys to it, we were hoping it would be girl toys, we didn't know yet she was actually girl. Now I have a basement FILLED with these huge boy toys and not one girl toy. Addison will never have toys at our house, she will have things that remind us of her. I get into that SUV everyday to go to work. I always wonder how much different my life would be. I go downstairs each time laundry needs to be done or Brent wants to play, and I wonder how much my life would be different with her. She should be 5 months right now if she was born full term. Instead it will 8 months next week since she was born, sleeping. I have these constant reminders of what should be.. and what will never be..