How "unfair" it is..

I have learned that life is so unfair at times. The things we want most are not here.

When I found out Addison had Fetal Hydrops I joined a group on Facebook with families that also had babies with fetal hydrops. This group to me is my 2nd family. They have always been there for me. They have never judged me on my ways of thinking. Also, unfortunately they know exactly what I have gone through and what is ahead of me through this journey. Each time another mother losses their baby, a piece of you breaks for them. Each time they leave a drs appt with no hope, were here to give them hope.

Each week we get more and more families join the group. Some are pregnant and just received the diagnosis of fetal hydrops. Some already have a living miracle that had it, then some already have lost there baby from this horrible thing. Each one of us know what that family has to endure, the pain of either going to countless doctor appts or the pain of loosing our child.

Each one of us what nothing more then to have our baby in our arms, alive and healthy. Each one of us didn't listen to the Drs when they suggested termination, because that 1% that they gave us is still a chance.

We are each others shoulders to cry on. When you think you can't handle it anymore, their there to listen and somehow always know the right thing to say. If you have never been our situation you, you will never understand. You should be thankful that you never will know what we live with everyday.

How life has been so unfair to many of us Mothers, I am thankful for my support group. Without them, I don't know where I would be. Without them, I don't think I would have survived these last 5 months. With them I know I will be able to find the new me. With them I am still standing through the loss of my daughter.