What would my life be like with my 3 month old daughter today? What would Brent be like as a big brother? 6 months later is just as hard as 5 months ago. The pain hasn't become any less; all it does is become manageable. You are able to manage when you have a complete breakdown.
I think one of the hardest things about a loss is what you remember but many don't. I know nobody but I will remember that today it has been 6 months since she was born. This day actually has been hard for me to anticipate. I have lived without
You already know how much I truly miss you. I am sorry you are not here with me physically, but I know you are always with me. I really wish things would have been different, and you were in my arms today. I have come to peace that no matter how much I wish I could have changed things, I am unable to. I walk out each morning when it's still dark out and to the left of me there is always beautiful shining star. I like to think it's you, shining down on me and saying Good Morning. Brent and I talk about you often and how he has a baby sister Addison. Last week Brent told me he loved and missed you and told me you were in heaven. Brent would have been a good big brother, of course some bullying but that's what older brothers are good for. Of course you would have been Daddies little girl. And my little dress up girl, with all the pink and purple girly outfits. We wanted you so badly
Love always your Mommie...
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