Day 10- Symbol

Addison was born on St. Patricks Day, March 17th 2012. Both Carl and I are actually Irish. Carl has always had a tattoo of praying hands on chest, which was his first tattoo. It had no real meaning to him, and after about 10 years it started to fade and actually he really didn't like it. Carl had a great idea when I got my first tattoo of Addison's feet he wanted to somehow add a shamrock to his praying hands. So him and the tattoo artist deciding they would add the shamrock to the hands like it was holding it. We decided on the shamrock because a four leaf clover meant luck and our instance we didn't feel like it fit. So my symbol would be a shamrock.

I also wanted to add to my symbol. Before the initial bad ultrasound appt I knew exactly what I wanted to do Addison's room in. I wanted OWLS, they are so cute and wide eyed. I had decals ready to be on order that was a big tree with owls, butterflies and birds before our 19 week ultrasound. This actually makes me really sad because even before she passed I still always envisioned us doing her room one day, with her. We knew we didn't want to do anything before she was born, just in case. But how wonderful would it be to actually do the room with her. I would have special quotes of her being a miracle. I had it all planned out. As I type this it still hurts so much while the tears are falling that Addison will never have a room. She will have places in our house but she will never have a room. But everytime I see Owls I always think of her and all the dreams I had for her. 

This is one of the many decals I had picked out for her room.