The perfection of these beautiful angels..

I think the most shocking thing to me would be how perfect these little beings actually are.

Before Addison was born I was so scared to see what she actually looked like. The first hospital who did my anatomy scan before we moved hospitals made Addison sound so deformed. She had a recessed chin, clubbed hands and feet, she was always in the same position. Then we moved hospitals and all they said one hand was in an odd position and her feet were clubbed, nothing else. That hospital did say she was severely swollen.

I was scared to hold her, I didn't know what to expect. But, when she was handed to me she looked so perfect. She did pass away before birth so the coloring of her skin was a deep cherry red, but other then that she was really perfect. My mother and I unwrapped her to see what the rest of her looked like. She was tucked in so sweetly in the fetal position, but it was just on hand that was almost tucked and one foot. She was swollen, but for how severe they kept telling me, it was hardly noticeable.

Sometimes I think that hurts just as much as not having her here with me. She was just so perfect. My husband and I made this beautiful daughter, and we were only able to show her loving grandparents. We have pictures of Addison but I am not comfortable showing people. I don’t know how they would react if they have never seen a baby that was an angel before being born.

But a story that comes to mind is the King Twins; these 2 beautiful little girls were conjoined and conjoined at the chest with nothing being able to save them. They were born alive and died in their parents arms, but they were perfect. The Mom shared some pictures of the girls and it's heartbreaking to see how perfect the girls were. Their fingers, toes, nose and eyes, just perfect.

I don't understand how God can make these perfect little babies and take them away in a blink of an eye.

A quote comes to mind "To beautiful for Earth".